Well the past two years have brought so many changes to this old girls life. 7 months after the death of my beloved husband Roy, our daughter Amy died in her sleep from Lupus. I thank God each day that he did not have to suffer that pain. She left us her three young sons who were the light of her life. I will endeavor to make sure that a part of her stays with them all the days of my life. Seems like only yesterday that 17 year old married that 19 year old and had three children. We had such dreams. Most of them came true. We were healthy for so many years, happy and knew such love as you usually only find in books. Oh we had our troubles, but in the end we always came back to our senses and knew what was real and important. I met and remarried a wonderful, Christian man who is also named Roy! In so many ways he is like my first husband, but in very important ways he is his own man, and the differences are worthwhile. He is also a widower, losing his beloved Sue after 27 years, very near their anniversary also. Sue died of cancer, and it was very fast for him. They did not have time to talk about the future and I find that very sad. But then again he didn't have to watch her suffer for years, so blessings are found in every difficulty aren't they? I am "attempting" to retire, seems like clients don't want that for me, and I guess I really don't want to totally let go either! Most of what I do is on the computer so find I can still travel and do occasional work. I am finding such joy in life again, the belief that beyond the stars my husband, son and daughter wait for me in a kind, gentle and amazing heaven, in the arms of our Lord keeps me strong, and on a firm foundation. I have started doing grief support for parents who lose their children and find that there is hope from those first, shattered days of overwhelming grief to walking with love and kindness again. Be safe on your journey through this world, find peace and find the Lord, He will give you all you need.