Well the past two years have brought so many changes to this old girls life. 7 months after the death of my beloved husband Roy, our daughter Amy died in her sleep from Lupus. I thank God each day that he did not have to suffer that pain. She left us her three young sons who were the light of her life. I will endeavor to make sure that a part of her stays with them all the days of my life. Seems like only yesterday that 17 year old married that 19 year old and had three children. We had such dreams. Most of them came true. We were healthy for so many years, happy and knew such love as you usually only find in books. Oh we had our troubles, but in the end we always came back to our senses and knew what was real and important. I met and remarried a wonderful, Christian man who is also named Roy! In so many ways he is like my first husband, but in very important ways he is his own man, and the differences are worthwhile. He is also a widower, losing his beloved Sue after 27 years, very near their anniversary also. Sue died of cancer, and it was very fast for him. They did not have time to talk about the future and I find that very sad. But then again he didn't have to watch her suffer for years, so blessings are found in every difficulty aren't they? I am "attempting" to retire, seems like clients don't want that for me, and I guess I really don't want to totally let go either! Most of what I do is on the computer so find I can still travel and do occasional work. I am finding such joy in life again, the belief that beyond the stars my husband, son and daughter wait for me in a kind, gentle and amazing heaven, in the arms of our Lord keeps me strong, and on a firm foundation. I have started doing grief support for parents who lose their children and find that there is hope from those first, shattered days of overwhelming grief to walking with love and kindness again. Be safe on your journey through this world, find peace and find the Lord, He will give you all you need.

Mountains So High

It has been a very long time since I was here and so much has changed in my life. I married a wonderful Christian man, also named Roy on Oct. 15, 2011. He and I have shared our love for the wife and husband who left us and have found great joy in each others company. His love for Christ is as strong and steady as mine, what a gift from God.

We went to Israel on our honeymoon and walked in the steps of our Lord. What an experience that was. I never thought I could feel closer to Jesus than I always have, but seeing His tomb, the Garden of Gethesemene, Mount of Olives, Jerusalem, and Sea of Galilee made me feel as if was nearer to Him.

I am in the process of retiring (at least trying to!) so that he and I can travel more. My daughter, her daughters, son in law and his three sons are so important to my life. I don't see them as much as I would like, and know I need to make more of an effort. Experiencing some health issues right now, but I know that He is in control and whatever He has planned for me I will be strong and meet the test. I not failed one yet, so no plans for this one to be any different.

God is good, and blesses us in so many ways that we cannot even count them.

The Top of the Mountain

I have not been here since my daughters death in May of this year. During the past few months I have been given the gift of love again, with a man who lost his wife about the same time I lost my husband. He was married to her for 27 years and truly understands that our love for them does not die, it just takes another place in our hearts. He is kind and gentle, but above all a Christian man who believes in eternity with our Lord. He and I will embark on our journey together on October 15 and will share with others all the love we have to give.

It will be a year since the death of my beloved Roy this coming Thursday. He, our son and our daughter are in heaven and I truly hope rejoicing in this second chance at happiness the Lord has blessed me with. My heart is learning to sing once again. You hear of broken hearts, but I know from experience that those breaks do heal with time, they leave scars but the music is still just as sweet when it sings once again.

My life has changed so much since that 17 year old girl married her high school sweetheart. He and I had three children who brought us both joy and frustration (sound familiar to you parents?). Ten years ago I had a family of 5 and it is now two. One child left from three children. They have "gone on" as it is told, to a much better place, where they are well, happy and seeing things that I can only imagine.

Hold tight to one another, take time each day to say I love you, and watch those special moments of your life and keep them safe within your hearts, they will sustain you no matter what happens in your lives. God keep all who suffer and give you the strength to walk each day beside Him.

Valleys So Low, Mountains So High: Valleys So Low, Mountains So High

Valleys So Low, Mountains So High: Valleys So Low, Mountains So High: "It has been several months since I have been here. Last time was to talk about my beloved husbands death. Now I need to talk about the dea..."

Valleys So Low, Mountains So High

It has been several months since I have been here. Last time was to talk about my beloved husbands death. Now I need to talk about the death of yet another child, my beloved Amy Marie. She died in her sleep on May 6, 2011 and left us with her husband and three sons.

I can truly say that I have been to the depths of sorrow, but the Lord keeps lifting me up to praise him. Amy was my gentle daughter, the one who had the Holly Hobby room, the doll collection, lace and ribbons. She loved to scrap book and was kind to all. She would cry at the smallest injustice that she saw for others and didn't understand the evil in the world. Her world was love, pure and simple. She suffered from Lupus for the last 15 years and was in constant pain, so her death was a release from that. BUT, coming just 7 months after the death of her father, and 10 years after the death of her brother it was very hard to take.

I have had people tell me "you have had such a tragic life", they are wrong. I have known great love and joy from the people in my life, and that overrides any pain I feel. We are not promised forever in this world, but are promised eternity in the next. I will see them again, and right now they are experiencing a life filled with love, laughter and peace, with no more pain. How can I be sad about that?

I am a Christian, not a mindless one as some seem to think, but one who truly believes in the promises made to us by God. I can talk the talk, or walk the walk-I chose the latter. I walk daily with my Savior, knowing full well that during those times when I stumble, He holds me up.

My life is now down to one child from three, but I have 5 wonderful grandchildren, and am experienceing the love of another person. LIfe goes on, and I hope all who read this know that nothing ever truly ends, it is all just a new beginning. Walk with God, experience the wholeness and beauty of the world we live in, goodness does prevail.