I have not been here since my daughters death in May of this year. During the past few months I have been given the gift of love again, with a man who lost his wife about the same time I lost my husband. He was married to her for 27 years and truly understands that our love for them does not die, it just takes another place in our hearts. He is kind and gentle, but above all a Christian man who believes in eternity with our Lord. He and I will embark on our journey together on October 15 and will share with others all the love we have to give.
It will be a year since the death of my beloved Roy this coming Thursday. He, our son and our daughter are in heaven and I truly hope rejoicing in this second chance at happiness the Lord has blessed me with. My heart is learning to sing once again. You hear of broken hearts, but I know from experience that those breaks do heal with time, they leave scars but the music is still just as sweet when it sings once again.
My life has changed so much since that 17 year old girl married her high school sweetheart. He and I had three children who brought us both joy and frustration (sound familiar to you parents?). Ten years ago I had a family of 5 and it is now two. One child left from three children. They have "gone on" as it is told, to a much better place, where they are well, happy and seeing things that I can only imagine.
Hold tight to one another, take time each day to say I love you, and watch those special moments of your life and keep them safe within your hearts, they will sustain you no matter what happens in your lives. God keep all who suffer and give you the strength to walk each day beside Him.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Valleys So Low, Mountains So High: Valleys So Low, Mountains So High
Valleys So Low, Mountains So High: Valleys So Low, Mountains So High: "It has been several months since I have been here. Last time was to talk about my beloved husbands death. Now I need to talk about the dea..."
Valleys So Low, Mountains So High
It has been several months since I have been here. Last time was to talk about my beloved husbands death. Now I need to talk about the death of yet another child, my beloved Amy Marie. She died in her sleep on May 6, 2011 and left us with her husband and three sons.
I can truly say that I have been to the depths of sorrow, but the Lord keeps lifting me up to praise him. Amy was my gentle daughter, the one who had the Holly Hobby room, the doll collection, lace and ribbons. She loved to scrap book and was kind to all. She would cry at the smallest injustice that she saw for others and didn't understand the evil in the world. Her world was love, pure and simple. She suffered from Lupus for the last 15 years and was in constant pain, so her death was a release from that. BUT, coming just 7 months after the death of her father, and 10 years after the death of her brother it was very hard to take.
I have had people tell me "you have had such a tragic life", they are wrong. I have known great love and joy from the people in my life, and that overrides any pain I feel. We are not promised forever in this world, but are promised eternity in the next. I will see them again, and right now they are experiencing a life filled with love, laughter and peace, with no more pain. How can I be sad about that?
I am a Christian, not a mindless one as some seem to think, but one who truly believes in the promises made to us by God. I can talk the talk, or walk the walk-I chose the latter. I walk daily with my Savior, knowing full well that during those times when I stumble, He holds me up.
My life is now down to one child from three, but I have 5 wonderful grandchildren, and am experienceing the love of another person. LIfe goes on, and I hope all who read this know that nothing ever truly ends, it is all just a new beginning. Walk with God, experience the wholeness and beauty of the world we live in, goodness does prevail.
I can truly say that I have been to the depths of sorrow, but the Lord keeps lifting me up to praise him. Amy was my gentle daughter, the one who had the Holly Hobby room, the doll collection, lace and ribbons. She loved to scrap book and was kind to all. She would cry at the smallest injustice that she saw for others and didn't understand the evil in the world. Her world was love, pure and simple. She suffered from Lupus for the last 15 years and was in constant pain, so her death was a release from that. BUT, coming just 7 months after the death of her father, and 10 years after the death of her brother it was very hard to take.
I have had people tell me "you have had such a tragic life", they are wrong. I have known great love and joy from the people in my life, and that overrides any pain I feel. We are not promised forever in this world, but are promised eternity in the next. I will see them again, and right now they are experiencing a life filled with love, laughter and peace, with no more pain. How can I be sad about that?
I am a Christian, not a mindless one as some seem to think, but one who truly believes in the promises made to us by God. I can talk the talk, or walk the walk-I chose the latter. I walk daily with my Savior, knowing full well that during those times when I stumble, He holds me up.
My life is now down to one child from three, but I have 5 wonderful grandchildren, and am experienceing the love of another person. LIfe goes on, and I hope all who read this know that nothing ever truly ends, it is all just a new beginning. Walk with God, experience the wholeness and beauty of the world we live in, goodness does prevail.
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